Letters I Gave Myself: Future

To My Future...

I struggled with this..
Not because you’re too much to imagine, but all that you could  be scares me.
And while I’m afraid of what you hold, I can’t forget what I've become because of you;
what focusing on you has done for my life:
I let go of anxiety and began to drive with you in mind.

My goals guided me to a city I’ve never seen, 
a country I fell in love with, and success beyond my imagination in 27 years of life.
You gave me a reason to keep going despite my circumstance; despite my past.

When I lost sight of you, I fell.. hard.
If I lose myself for a moment everything comes crashing down.
So I learned to be resilient and eliminated the superfluous from my life.
I won't be distracted again.

I miss the dreams you give me.
I love the visions you bring early in the morning while the world is still asleep.
Come back to me..
Open my eyes so that I can see clearly the path we travel on now.
Inspire me.
Open up to me.
Whisper a riddle in my ear that takes me years to figure out. 
Give me another piece to this puzzle of who you are.. who I am.
Tell me everything in intervals. Slowly pull back this veil to reveal what's to come,
and I'll be as ready as ever, loving every second of it.

You'll probably say no, but I was brave enough to ask; 
I'm bold enough to try something foreign that feels too familiar to ignore.

So tell me, Future:
Where am I headed?
What’s around this corner of my life?
Who will I be?

Answer: "You decide."
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