To My Future...
I struggled with this..
Not because you’re too much to imagine, but all that you could be scares me.
And while I’m afraid of what you hold, I can’t forget what I've become because of you;
what focusing on you has done for my life:
I let go of anxiety and began to drive with you in mind.
To my past:
We knew this day was coming;
when we’d part ways again.
I don’t know why, but this gets easier every time.
Perhaps I have a better understand of you now:
You are not a specific person, or a particular period in my life.
Forgive me for waiting until the 4th day of January to make my resolution. I'm more of a rebel when it comes to being on time - and by that I mean I have a tendency to be late. I was never really into "resolutions" to be honest, because they always proved to be temporary. So, on this day, and for everyday after, I will make a vow to change.
Change my thought process, because lately its been lacking.
Change my procrastinating habits, because with my schedule that shit needs to stop.
Change my outlook on life, due to many years of realizing I am never fully in control.
Change my outlook on love.... I never recover properly.